Today marks the seven weeks you arrived in this world. Close to 40 weeks you entered my life. I knew I love you before I met you and it’s more than words can say.

When you were born, there is a pandemic call Covid-19 going on around the world. There were less than 200 cases in Singapore then. After seven weeks, it has risen to 15 thousand and mummy stopped reading and counting. Sorry baby, the only place you get to visit was the hospital, the polyclinic for medical appointments, gong gong and popo’s when mummy visits the doctor. The only thing I wanted to do is to keep you safe from the insanity.

Unlike many babies, you did not get to have a full month celebration. It looks like you are not getting a 100 day celebration as well. We will have to wait till you are one year old. Hopefully this pandemic will be gone by then. Mummy really want to show you off. You are my best creation so far. 🥰

Mummy gets 16 weeks of paid maternity leave and I spent most of my day watching you. You are so adorable that I toyed with the idea of giving you another sibling soon but uncle and auntie doctors told mummy to wait. Sorry baby, not in another one to two years. They told mummy it will be too risky. They were afraid mummy’s heart will stop again.

Sorry baby. Mummy is really afraid of daily blood thinning injections at the moment and I may not be able to give you a sibling in future. I really want to see you grow up. My greatest fear is never seeing you and getting to cradle you in my arms again. Let me be selfish and love you for a little while more.

It broke my heart when we were in different hospitals after you were born and I still remember how touched I was when I met you for the first time. I cannot imagine being separated from you again. Let me drag this for a little while too.

I have been waiting and preparing for your arrival for the longest time and I thought I was ready. I was wrong. Nothing could prepare me for this awesome feeling you gave. Through you, I finally understand the meaning of blessing.

I didn’t know I can have so much love for a tiny human being. You filled up a void in my heart I did not know existed. Mummy and Daddy have been waiting for you for the longest time and we will do anything for you.

Thank you for being my child. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you baby.