I’ve never enjoyed nipple play for foreplay. Never been aroused through that. I get annoyed actually.

From hiding my nips from men to forcing them into my son’s mouth. What a funny twist of fate.

You don’t know what pain is until you let your child suck on your nipple when you have a blocked duct. This was a new kind of pain I experienced. It felt like my child is strengthening his lungs by sucking stones out from my nipple. The only way to stop it is pulling him away yet I can’t. Motherhood felt real with breastfeeding and motherhood is beautiful.

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I only tried latching five weeks after I gave birth and I remembered the first latching experience was ticklish. He was just just licking my nipples while giving me a confused look. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.

Now, he looks for my nipples every time I carry him while he is hungry. I offer it to him while waiting for his milk to be warmed up. I offer it to him when he inconsolable and wants comfort. I regret instantly when he chomps on them when he’s too hungry. The sight of his little head bobbing to and fro is so cute. What can I say? Fresh mummy’s milk is the best milk. Kids knows best.

Dear baby, what happens when mummy goes back to work? Mummy can’t be latching you all the time but I will offer them to you as long as my breasts still produces milk no matter how little their yield is.