A follow up visit to the cardiologist left me somewhat upset today. He explained the results of my echo test taken two weeks ago.

“The right side of your heart is still swollen. The blood clots might not have fully dissolved,” he said.

My heart has not recovered six months after my pulmonary embolism episode triggered by cesarean section. There were multiple blood clots that block oxygen to my lungs which caused my heart to stop beating. The biggest clot measured 1.8cm.

“You may start exercising if you clear your CT scan,” he added, “The haematologist can decide if you should continue with Wafarin after the scan.”

Oh no… Was it due to the strenuous exercises I had been doing during my weekly personal training sessions? I have been working out when I shouldn’t.

My heart…

I’m sorry I should not have work you so hard. Did I work you too hard with my marathons in the past?

Can I blame the bastards I met before that left you so torn and broken?

I am sorry. I need you to keep working for a while more. I promise you will get a balanced work life.

Let’s take it easy from here for now on.