超度 (Chao Du), translated to transcend, or a religious ceremony to help a soul find peace.

Performed for the baby I never got to meet and hold in my arms. The ectopic pregnancy was back in 2016 but the rites performed this weekend.

Sorry I did not have a choice to keep you as you grew in my Fallopian tube instead of my womb. The tube raptured as you grew bigger and the doctors removed you together with my fallopian tube.

I’ve given you a name before and I know you are always around me. I hope you will find peace and be on your way to a better place after the rites.

If afterlife exists, I would love to meet you and hold you in my arms just like how I hold your little brother.

I will never forget you and you will always be my eldest child. I love you baby.

看了师父发来的照片不自觉地感到伤感。写着、写着、泪流满面。大宝，上路吧。妈妈很爱很爱你。

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