Merry last two days of Christmas although most peasants like us will be back at work.

Hope year 2020 ended well and you had a good start to 2021.

Just before the year ended, I was diagnosed with post natal depression and everything felt negative and I was feeling low. I wasn’t happy the bad year ended and I wasn’t happy the new year started.

In fact, the thought of going back to work makes me anxious because I have not been productive at all at work the past three weeks. Work guilt.

I took three days to update one bloody slide and another few on miscellaneous stuff. Most of the people are out of office and I’ve been playing mobile games and mindlessly scrolling my phone.

So anxious that I called the mental health hotline and cried.

“You have to think for yourself,” the counsellor said, after I poured my heart out.

I’ve been seriously trying to figure out my next steps too. My escape plan from anxiety. Easiest and fastest way to quit the damn job and focus on recovery. Physically and mentally. The mere thought of not having anything to do with work, the company and the people made me sooooooo happy.

As if things are not bad enough, I was made to go through a swap test and mandated by law to stay home until I receive the results because I was having a headache that didn’t go away, a runny nose and sore throat. Cold weather, lack of sleep and I too much biscuits lah!

At least my negative result is something to be positive about.