Four months (in May) after finding out my husband’s infidelity…

Things obviously changed and he couldn’t control himself again and broke his promise.

He didn’t visit massage parlours again but he watched porn. Why was I upset? You see, he said he will never watch porn again after the big Hoo-ha but he did. Six times…

I wouldn’t take this against him if he did not voluntarily promise this. I also asked if he remembered making that promise which he did. Don’t make promises you cannot keep. Merely holding him on to his word.

I was not that angry this time because I did not think he could keep on to his promises in the first place. Hence, I did not pin too much hopes on him after the whole episode. Deep down, I was waiting for him to break his promise again because I knew it was only a matter of time. We were in the midst of getting a new place and he can’t even wait for a while more to upset me again.

It’s just porn right? Watch only. Not like he went for happy ending again.

He was not forgiven and still on performance review. He might have thought everything is back to the normal. What made him think he can get away with this again?

I am not sure if I over reacted but I kicked him out once again. Let him sleep in the car for two days. He didn’t dare go back to his parent’s. I know because I checked his location.

Yes, of course he said he is only watching. May I remind you it all started from watching. Porn was never an issue until he betrayed my trust.

You watch today.

Tomorrow you visit a massage parlour to get a happy ending.

The day after tomorrow, you will be looking for prostitute.

YOU GAVE ME YOUR WORD.

If I still allow you stay in the same place today, you will think I am making empty threats and think you can do this to me again and again and again.

I don’t have the time and energy for whatever he is putting me through.

I don’t know how many times we have to go through this again. I don’t even have words to describe how I feel now.