“Hey, I’m doing an outreach on heart problems during pregnancy. What is the name of the condition? Can you share more about your experience,” asked a classmate from my Masters program.

I bumped into her when I was at the hospital during one of my follow up appointments and I had briefly mentioned my condition.

I always wondered how much people listened when I shared what healths problems I was going through.

Then I realised I forgot the name of the condition and I had forgotten what I went through.

Pulmonary embolism it is.

I guess I’ve completely moved on since I was discharged from the relevant departments and I do not need to go back to the hospital for checks anymore.

It is true when it is out of sight and out of mind.

Dear heart,

Hope you are well.

It has been a while. I am trying not to gain weight and to remain healthy. I am not sure if I am doing right.

I try to exercise and keep your beat up but I get anxious.

You may be happy to know you will never be put through the stress again because I’m never going to be pregnant in future.

Stay with me.

Keep beating.

I need you.