Recently, I ended a 12 hour work day after covering for a colleague and I felt like I got hit by a bus.

There was pricking pain at the side of my head at the end of the day. I did not want to move when I got home and my whole body was aching.

I used to like my work and loved keeping myself busy, but not anymore.

You see, all was well when I handled my own clients. Then, came a buddy system which somebody will take over and cover when one is away.

I happened to be covering for the same colleague on hospitalisation leave thrice, twice post holiday, not including long weekend sick days and annual leave days. I lost count on the number of days.

Let’s call her MC Queen.

Well, people cover for me when I was away too. Yeah, but I took proper annual leave and childcare leave and I informed early. Not ad hoc surprise sick leave (MC).

Plus, I requested to take over some of her work officially when my own clients cancelled or reduced their training days. It is only fair and I wanted to justify my existence.

Since last year, I signed up for Class Pass so I can attend gym or yoga class during lunch to rid myself of negativity from work. Now, I don’t dare to book anything beforehand in case I need to cover for someone. The cost is on me if I don’t attend after booking.

MC Queen was upset when she had to cover for our manager while the latter was on annual leave. She took sick leave during her cover period and I had to cover for her instead. Well done.

Today, big boss complained to my manager that I wasn’t on the ball enough for a new client. Hello… Training for this client starts in October. The report that MC Queen’s client wanted is due today. Guess where she is? Absent from work because she just came back from a holiday and is sick again!

I could not justify and defend myself because I was not in the call with her.

Stupid crazy bitch. Quit barking at those who don’t abuse the system. The thought of seeing her in office next week after my long holiday weekend kills my mood.

Maybe I should take some more leave days. Maybe I should take MC while she is in Singapore.

I am exhausted and I am angry. The best way to protect myself is to take cover from these negativity. I would love to see how you get your courses get accredited and how the team survives when I throw in my resignation.

End of rant. Thank you for reading. 🫰