I finally completed my course last weekend and I am currently working from home at my pending renovation and unfurnished new place.

Offloading the weight I put on myself item by item. Once this renovation ends and after moving it, I will have less on my plate.

Piece by piece, item by item, shelf by shelf, the progress seemed to be so slooooooow.

Contractor not volunteering information, ID slow, PE on holiday. Hello, not my problem ok.

They are so slow that I started to wonder if they are legit at all and if they will disappear with my deposit. I hope not since the person I liaise with is my friend’s husband.

Some neighbours shifted in, most are doing their renovation. The main contractor of the estate panicked and came to inspect my unit because my neighbour had hacked their structural wall. Well done…

Work has not slowed down and being dumped with a big client by school holiday MC queen. I find myself lacking the time and energy to apply for a new job.

Why does she have less while I have more?

Maybe it is a strategy: Make employees so busy that they don’t have time to look elsewhere.

Nice to know early this week that the vase at work tendered and was put on garden leave immediately. No difference to me since I am already doing her stuff.

I am getting so sick of picking up after those underperforming people and managing the travel logistics of other people that I felt like quitting every time I was asked to do something. I felt like a training logistics whore.

I asked my business partner if we have enough work for me to manage the business full time? Not at the moment but maybe it will come.

Maybe I can do delivery with real estate and the business. Then, I thought I will be worried about retirement funds again if I stop being an employee again. Maybe three times is the charm?

It is Q4 now and I felt like I needed a break but the next big family holiday two months away and two months is a looooong time.

I did not have the mood to start any new task and I am just mindless scrolling through social media during working hours and being unproductive.

Even writing this post required effort but writing is not a chore. It is my hobby.

Maybe I need to get things off my mind to proceed and work on the next thing.

How and what do I need to do to get myself motivated and hungry?