Category Archives: life

Friends, Health, Mind, Body & Soul, Thoughts

Back Training

“Enjoy Early Bird Discounts”, reads the email. Ahhh so tempting.

I stopped running as exercise since I started visiting the gym for a while. Size dropped but weight is the same. Obese and still obese.

It is not that I don’t like running anymore but it does take a bit of time. Plus, my knee and feet hurts. Excuses and excuses.

Maybe I’ve been taking too easily at the gym and not seeing any effects. Maybe I should start running again.

I was training for my next marathon post delivery until I had to stop due to health reasons. Swollen heart and need to monitor heart pressure.

“Sister, are you signing up for this run next year?” I asked.

“Yes, want to do half?” Friend asked.

“Ok!” I replied and procrastinated signing up.

Colleague, “I signed up for half.”

“Ok!” I replied and signed up.

More people I know more motivation.

This is probably my 10th half marathon and I need to start training, and I did.

Since I woke up at 5am naturally, I might as well start running two or three kilometres first. So tiring and why is it taking so long? I can’t seem to lift my legs.

Then I need an hour of nap or total rest the next day to recover. This is going to be a long journey.

Maybe if I persist with usual runs, I will drop the 20kg I gained. Let’s try two to three kilos in 2026 ok?

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Culture, Holiday, life, Relationship, Thoughts

Family Holidays

It is almost the end of the year and it like I have not taken a break at all and I felt like I am mentally drained now.

Yes, I went overseas several times but it did not feel like I had a proper break.

When have I not taken a holiday alone or with my immediate family?

Only 20 months ago! I would have done it again but I will miss my child terribly.

Let me recap. Cruise with the extended family last year which the parents commented it was too fancy. Argh… Asian parents…

June this year to visit the sister with a bad divorce and a court case in Sweden and Bali in August with the sister in law to show that the property we invested five years back is legit.

Upcoming is a trip to China to visit the birthplace of my dad. It has been a chore and all conversations has not moved away from money, prayers and red packets. Damn. I don’t even give the equivalent of two to 300 RMB in Singapore. Aiyah. Just contribute lah.

Given my dad’s old age, it will probably be the first and last time we visit the village with him, so I don’t want to comment so much. If it makes him happy, so be it.

My mum refused to join and made snide comments whenever she can and it is annoying. Her weekly rants on discrimination regarding preferences for boys over girls when she was there runs like a broken record.

On top of it, she will mention things like we will never understand because all of us gave birth to boys.

Well, counting down to the upcoming big family holiday this time. I am not sure how well or how disastrous it will turn out.

I guess next year will be all about keeping my sanity intact and there will be no more big holidays for a while.

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Adult, complain, Housing, Relationship, Thoughts, Work

Stress About Money

Just when I haven’t fully gotten over the husband giving away half an apartment, he’s at it annoying me again.

This time he made a purchase of almost 200K on a new car.

I know he has a stable job but I think he is secretly rich and has money stashed somewhere without my knowledge to be so spent thrift.

Maybe he received a hefty inheritance from my in laws.

Why am I saving pennies when he is spending money like water?

Renovation for my new place finally started and I see light at the end of the tunnel. Finally the husband can stop asking me if the contractor I engaged is legit and if we will lose our deposit. Why did I take the initiative to do anything? Shouldn’t this be a man’s responsibility?

Have I attempted to do some retail therapy. Not really but I booked a business cum birthday trip with my business partner to Bangkok in two months time.

Massages? Just finishing up the shoulder and neck package near office since I am changing job soon. My back and waist aches from the neglect.

Yesterday, I took a two hour nap after lunch while working from home, since it was a quiet day. I felt better but still lethargic and slept early at night.

Guilty? Yes but I better enjoy this before I start my new job since I will no longer have work from home days.

I already had two holidays this year but I still felt like I never went on any to truly enjoy it. One was to Sweden to visit my sister going through her own trauma and the other to Bali where I brought my sister in law to check out an investment property.

I have an upcoming family trip with my dad to visit his hometown in China. Just like the cruise last year, before we started the holiday, I’ve already spent more than 5K chipping in to prepare for rituals and welcome red packets for relatives. The whole village are relatives. WTH. I’m already exhausted thinking about it.

Sigh… The pros and cons of having educated ancestors where they documented 17 generations.

All these this stress about money…

No wonder I had been feeling down recently and unable to lift my mood despite attempts to sleep, exercise and eat right. These episodes are not helping.

“Are you ok?” The husband asked.

“I am not ok,” I responded.

He went back to dooms scrolling. End of conversation.

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