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In Will I Trust

By now, I would have nearly recovered from my hysterectomy operation with no complications and I look forward to period and cramp free days ahead.

Truth be told, I had my will and trust done before going for the surgery. I had been putting it off for sometime and I only felt the urgency to complete it now.

My financial advisor asked me to do up one after I got married and I put it off even after my near death episode after child birth two years ago.

At this stage, I didn’t want the interstate succession act to take effect in case anything happens to me.

I wanted to make sure he don’t benefit greatly financially in the unfortunate event of my death going forward. He gets the HDB and the other properties as those are joint assets.

I also wanted to be sure my son, nieces and nephews get everything under my name and not some other women in the unforeseeable future.

People asked why I don’t leave everything to my son. I made those big financial decisions with my nieces and nephews in mind before I started dating, got married and have a kid. I want the kiddos that share my blood get something. That’s why it’s called legacy I guess.

The will will only take effect in the event of death and I got a corporate trustee to execute my will. I don’t want any of my living adult relatives to curse me having to execute my will even after I am buried six feet under or returned to earth in ashes.

In no man I trust.

In no one I trouble.

In will I trust. Amen.

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我嫌脏 Dirty

请你离开我的视线。我看到你我觉得眼睛脏。

请你离开我的住处。我嫌你碰的每个东西脏。

我不要你的车子。我嫌你用的两只手碰过的方向盘和别的女人脏。

东西脏可以洗。脑子和行为脏是洗不掉的。

结婚时许下的承诺如今变得一文不值。

在你跃出道德的界限时就走向了不归路。

在你越过道德的界限时就因该知道我会离开你。

滚！我嫌你脏。

Get out of my sight. My eyes get dirty looking at you.

Get out of my home. Everything you touch becomes dirty.

I don’t want your car. I don’t want to use the steering wheels you used after touching another woman.

Things that got dirty can be washed. You cannot wash away a dirty mind and dirty actions.

Wedding vows seemed to be worthless now.

You embarked on a journey of no return when you stepped out of moral boundaries.

You should know I will leave you when you stepped out of moral boundaries.

Fuck off! I find you dirty.

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Cruel

New year new beginning. How has the first week of 2022 treated you? Good I hope.

I managed to clock 30mins of exercise a day and closed all my rings on my iWatch.

I said I wanted to watch less tv and read more, I don’t understand Tao Te Jing by Lao Tzu I was reading but I finished watching Emily in Paris on Netflix.

On the third day of the new year, I found out my husband has been unfaithful to me for quite a while. I need time to let everything sink in.

The first day I felt numb and made the decision to remove my womb at the end of the month. No way I am going to have another child with this man ever again. I contemplated to risk my life again for another child but I got my answer. The answer is NO. He’s not worth it.

Second day was rage. I started scolding him and sending unkind texts. I don’t like this version of myself. I got my helper to pack all his stuff and I kicked him out.

Third day I felt pain. I had tears of anger and my chest felt tight. My body started reacting to the anger with more bleeding.

Fourth day, I ignored his messages instead of replying with angry texts. My heart hurts and I cried. He showed up when I was at the school to picked my child up. I asked him to wait for me at the lobby and I passed him the engagement and wedding ring. I told him he can transfer the money to me after he sold it.

They meant nothing to me now. I would rather not keep useless symbols. I’ll have the cash.

I thought my first husband was bad. Apparently the second one is not any better.

Two marriages and I still couldn’t get it right and I still didn’t get my happily ever after.

Tomorrow is my 39th birthday. My life is a joke. My life is a drama. My life is cruel.

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